In this moment, I’m grateful… grateful and peaceful. Not for perhaps the reasons you would expect though. Life balance, surplus cash, career advancement, perfect relationships, profound spiritual understanding. Nope. Quite the opposite actually. I’m grateful because I feel as though I’m finally beginning to get a grasp on the idea that life is as much about the journey as it is the result.
Over the past six or so months, I’ve dealt with a myriad of challenges related to all the things mentioned above. Most significantly, I’ve struggled with questions of faith, peace in my relationships, and balance between my work load and family obligations. You know, the usual stuff. And naturally, it’s troublesome! But after a few candid conversations with old and new friends that have shared similar struggles, I’m starting to rethink my relationship with this type of worry. It seems as though the very things that worry me, bother me, and perplex me are also the very things that will afford me the eventual wisdom, insight, and perspective that I desire. Revolutionary, I know! Uncertainty and difficulty are not exactly my choice states of being.
Granted, I’m sure I have much bigger, heavier burdens ahead of me and this is all so much easier said than done but I’m content with the idea of that too. For right now, I’m committed to focusing on the present without casting too much anxiety on what lies ahead of me or tirelessly turning over the mistakes behind me. But instead, being grateful for what’s right in front of me amidst all it’s imperfections and quandaries. I have questions and I have challenges and that’s ok.
This is all a work in progress on my end. And I’m sure I’m not the only one out there noodling around similar thoughts. So, what do you think?
P.S. The photo above was taken yesterday in a lovely corner of my new friend Rachael’s beautiful home. We could have talked for hours and almost did! You’ll be seeing more from her and her Style Story in the coming weeks.